Kate & Emily

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Hello its nikki here again , this time its a different story i am 16 years old , and i currently feeling depressed and upset my mum and dad finally divorced 2005 but it was very messy and is still dragging on even now its all over. i started seeing my dad in 2008 ithink i cant quite remember but i started seeing him and then every time i got upset or i might of upset him with out knowing my mums car kept getting damaged and we know its him because hes done it to friends and familys cars and he has been diagnosed with metal health problems but this is from my mum and i told here that i dont know what to belive and i think tahts wasnt the greatest words to come out of my mouth because it really upset her but i dont and then dad tells me thing and i really dont wanna here it the past is the past it stays there i just really want it all to stop and for everything to move on its been 6 years and its making me feel horrible to add to this i sent my dad a fathers day card and he recived it from my god parents where he picks me up from but i went out of the blue and he didnt know i was there came in seem like he had soemthing on his mind and said to me that he wanted to talk to me baring in mind i havent seen him for a while because i had exams and most of it i was in my room revising hours on end and i barely talked to my mum or brother then he got annoyed because he promised me that he would pay half for my prom dress and never gave me the money for three to four months so i decied from my mums phone to text him because he does have my number anymore because my mum kept reading my texts and it got annoying and the courts said he has to contact me and my brother each week using mums phone and if we want to talk to him we and if not then thats are choice but he doesnt bother and he has the cheek to turn round to me and say you never contact me so i was upset when i got a text about money ? i dont understand himi want him in my life but if hes gonna moan al the time and mums stressing me out saying i gotta stop seeing him and that evening after i saw him i was really upset and like any mother she wasnt happy with him because he made me upset and mum wasnt having a go at me but sometime would make comments in the end i had to call and family friend to come round and cal her down i was so upset at the kind of things my mum was coming out with its like she hasnt moved on it was things that my dad has done and she kind of throws rhetorical questions at me but whats to here what she wants and not what i want and saying that i shouldnt see him again and calling him horrible names i didnt want to hear it she may not be coping with me seeing him but my brother has special needs and just to keep mum happy he says he doesnt want to see him because he may be scared to say that ti mum i dont know but im all confused as m=you may have guessed and to be honest i needed this off of my chest so do you think you can give me any advice on what to do ?? any advice would be apreciated thankyou nikki x