Falling apart

Hi,

my hair is falling out!!! I have developed Insomnia and CSP (compulsive skin picking)!!!

I am 26 years old, have a healthy diet, don't drink much (or go out to be able to), don't smoke and generally a consciously healthy person and yet my hair is coming out in handfuls in the shower,I have anxiety attacks and tight chested, aching heart, laboured breath etc., i can't fall asleep til sometimes 5am, then have to get up between 6 and 7.30am for my baby son, and have developed a subconscious habit of scratching, picking skin off my face/lips. I know really disgusting. I am now aware of it and am trying to control it after my mum told me I had blood running down my face whilst I was watching TV. I am going to the doctor tomorrow, but this all started because my ex has been threatening to take me to court for more contact with our son and is constantly texting me, calling me names, emotionally blackmailing me and being a general (insert swear word here)! I have never stopped contact and he has him every other weekend and has just had him for a week this summer. My son is not even a year old, I just moved house a week ago, still awaiting benefits and trying to sort and start a life with my son afresh after my ex left us penniless and homeless and heartbroken, cheated on and rejected. I am trying to find playgroups and classes and a new routine together and trying to be a good co-parent and keeping him in the loop every week, inviting him down for his birthday and being as amicable as possible and yet the more i give the more he is pushing me and being unco-operative and nasty. He lves over 50 miles away and thinks he can have our son whenever he wants. I have to deal with the fall out of a baby who does not understand why his mum left him for two days or a weeka nd spend the next week with a clingy, unsettled, unhappy baby and not being able to get anything done.

Why does he not understaand that for me to be a good mother i need to be happy and calm and he is causing me to become ill with stress and worry that my baby is going to be taken off me without my control...

Please any advice would be welcome am a bit on edge and quite tearful...

Don't worry going to doctor tomorrow, just needed to rant, sorry!!